Ryan

summer, summer, summer time :)

2005-07-06T22:04:12Z

where do i start?!

fourth of july...i went to my lake house. the weather was perfect! we layed out on the boat and went tubing...rode the jet ski a little ya know! it was fun

I honestly love summer soo much! beside practice in the morning theres nothing really that needs to be done. i just lay around and hang out with my lovely friends.

i got senior pictures two weeks ago? and i got my proofs back. most of them turned out nicely. i was pleased and i had fun taking the pictures too hehe.

*random thoughts*

i hate my job...they never work me!
i miss my brother :(
you're cute
i miss our friendship...where ever that went
i eat a lot and i love it
i love SUKK
im poor and i can't wait to start my new job
i dont like a lot of people
i really want to get my license
my mom annoys me a lot!
i love my lake house in port huron!

thats enough..... im bored...waiting for dinner to be ready lol then hanging out with my lovely friend. we're going to a baseball game. then hopefully hanging out with you :)

my cousin Emily is coming in from england soon!!! well shes already in florida with her dad and shes coming here monday! i can't wait. i love her shes soo much fun! shes staying till around the 22nd. i honestly can't wait. :)

I booked tickets today to go to virgina august second through the fifth with my sister. we're flying there and meeting the rest of my family for our family reunion. everyone else is driving and staying a week. but we're only staying a few days and then flying home.

i also think that i may be going to florida to visit my grandparents. I think i may also be able to bring a friend or two :) that would be fun! i have to chat with my grandma still though. my fingers are crossed.

thats all... hope everyone is enjoying their summer

C*O*M*M*E*N*T

Pistons are jamin' and i dont mean jelly baby :)

2005-06-24T15:30:38Z

Last night was something...it was fun though. We honestly walked around for like an hour trying to find seats and then we jsut happened to be in the right place at the right time and we got real good seats! it sucks that they lost but oh well it was fun! Holly, Nora, and i made it on the big screen too! we were honestly sooo excited it was funny!

The walk back to the car

me and liz looking out for each other

liz, kelly and holly haha at the end of the row

that was right before we got on the tv lol

ahh bingy!

palace vision what?!

we lost :( but whateve.... hope everyone is having a great summer! Fire works on sunday! with alicia! anyone else want to come let us know! comment bitches :(

i dont like this thing any more

2005-05-14T20:45:33Z

I love my darling friend jessica austin! shes the greatest! ;)

Well of course i can't forget my best friends nora and elizabeth! i love you two to death! and thanks for cheering me up last night...i needed it!

i dont like my livejournal anymore. but i guess ill update every so often...

oh and by the way...YOU'RE GAY!

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much2cute069 @ 2005-04-24T12:15:00

2005-04-24T16:18:22Z

I hate snow!

Snow sucks big ass balls and so did this weekend!

Hopefully next week will be a little better!

Should i stop trying?! :(

C.O.M.M.E.N.T

Let the good times roll :)

2005-04-16T23:57:24Z

I haven't updated in awhile...but this past week was long! i was worried about something really little that i really shouldn't have been worrying about...it felt like everything i did went wrong. i was really grumpy and i apologize.

Yesterday was definitely the perfect ending to a horrible week though. I'm so glad i got to hang out with my good friends and just had a drama free fun time lol. I had to work till 7 yesterday and liz went to the movies so at about 9:30 Nora, Liz and I drove out to pinkney. The drive home today was touching :). "You girls seriously are my best friends!!" i love you both with all my heart!

I have to work today from 12 to 7...GAY... i already dont like my work! maybe if nora got the job it be a little more entertaining but as for now i sit there and stare out the hut window. i basically get paid 6.50 an hour to sit on my ass and fall asleep...id rather water the plants or something outside where i can at least benefit from the sun. whateve maybe they'll fire me if i keep messing up lol.

I can't wait for tomorrow after another long day of work! me and my dan are going out and hes going to get me a new freaking tennis racket! maybe it'll improve my skills ::crosses fingers:: who's up for a round of tennis with me?! haha im hardcore although i suck...its soo much fun though!

SPRING FLING tonight! i can't wait. i think im going with nora and liz. i dont know i'm wiped out from last night. we'll see.

I'm so glad i heard from you today :) it cheered me up a lot!

Holla bitches... :)

ahhh

2005-04-04T22:04:38Z

it's back to reality...

spring break was a lot of fun! it was good to see my cousin again but i missed my friends :)

just a quick update...

ACT's are this saturday and im nervous!! i need to study hardcore. and i have less than a week. ahh

p.s You're really cute! :)

C.O.M.M.E.N.T.

yesssss

2005-03-24T13:08:42Z

Yesterday night i went to the movies with Robbie and we saw the Ring two. it was soo good! Good night! :)

I'm off to a sunny place! see you all in 10 days :)

*S.P.R.I.N.G* *B.R.E.A.K* *2.0.0.5!*

<3 :)

since you've been gone

2005-03-21T00:23:28Z

I'm soo pumped for spring break!.... 3 days!...heck yes!

Weekend started off slow! haha. me and jessie sat at my house for like 2 hours and did absolutely nothing! the only thing we accomplished in those two hours is...nothing we just real slap happy. then someone called jessie and saved us. lol thanks :) we went to tb and danced around and then went to mike's house and hung out with him and jake. and then went home at like 12:30...i've also accomplished a later curfew...8-) haha

we had a junior girls day thingy. lots of fun! easter egg hunt around the town. i went with leslie, emily and amber. and we were winning until we got pulled over by a cop =O then robbie came and picked me up and we hung out till i had to babysit :) hes something else :) i babysat till like 11:30 and then just watched spring break on MTV till i fell asleep.

today is my moms birthday...shes old lol. but i love her. robbie asked me to go to the pistons game today and i couldn't cuz of my mom birthday : / ...oh well i watched it on tv lol. and ashlee came over for a little then we went tanning.

i dont think im gonna go to school on thursday...i could because we're not leaving for the airport till like 12 but my mom said i could stay home so why pass up a chance like that. lol.

theres a good possibility i will be taking my road test on tuesday...wish me luck i may need it

you're too cute for words! i'm soo happy as of right now! :) hehe

I really miss summer :( and the people from summer

C.O.M.M.E.N.T

I dont want to waste another moment...

2005-03-17T20:42:52Z

this is amazing....

it kind of amuses me how many immature people are out there...for the most part right in front of our faces...

so i have an opinion get over it. welcome to high school...yea there are two faces stuck up bitches that talk shit. maybe im one of them or maybe you just need to grow up a little.

next time before you start bitching ask me if i care...cause i can almost guarantee you'll be wasting your breath. tell someone who cares about you and about what you do in life...sorry sweetie im not one of them!

another thing...deal with your own shit...dont bring your friends into your little arugments. they probably dont want to dig you out of a hole. get over yourself and get a life!

ahh...

this week has gone by soo fast. i can't wait for spring break though. where i can get away from everything! one week!

i can't wait for the weekend too. yay...no work for liz! :) we're gonna hang out for sure!

well im gonna go..my lovely friend ashlee is coming over :)

sorry for all the bitching : /

COMMENT :)

hmm...

2005-03-13T05:22:48Z

i <3 my best friend :)

and of course jessie freakin austin lol.

yesterday school was boring. whats new? after school i went tanning with the twin then i slept lol. later my best friend stephen came over and played clue haha. stephen won....so we went to 711 and i bought him a slurpee cuz im a good best friend :) and we went to dans for a little bit. then he dropped me off at jakes and we watch the butterfly effect...that movie is real confusing...you gotta really pay attention and thats real difficult when you have A.D.D.

my good friend liz picked me up from jakes cuz i love her oh soo much! :)

today i went and got my hair cut at like 10:30 in the freaking morning..ahhh it was soo early. we drive to like the boonies to get our hair cut. i think its about a 45 minute drive...i dont like car rides. so by the time we were done it was like 2 and i made my mom take me to taco bell lol. i got home and showered and did my hair...you can't really tell its shorter. but i didn't really want it short.

my good friend jessie austin came over and we went to jakes house. and then we walked to jeremy's house. its real cold out! we were at jeremys for a little then we went driving on high speed chases with lisa and jaleece. it was a good time lol. then we went back to jeremy's and tried to play poker hah what a joke :) me and jes were on a team and we were soo good lol. after poker we chatted with rachel and leslie for a little. they're some nice gals. and then hector drove me and jessie home lol.

tomorrow i might go out with my dad....im not sure yet. we'll see

i seriously can't wait for next weekend!! i'll be soo happy :)!

comment <3

much2cute069 @ 2005-03-06T12:00:00

2005-03-06T17:16:53Z

one snow day + three half days = good times :)

wednesday...i didn't feel really well but i came home and slept for a little and then i hung out with my best friend :)

thursday was my birthday and i went out to eat with some of my good friends :) it was fun. and then i hung out with my lovely friend liz and we went to zacks house and hung out with him and dennis for a while. until kelly picked me up and i finally got a tanning package :) yes!

friday jessie came over. i love her soo much! and we attempted to make some eggs for kelly. jake and mike came over and then so did alex and steve a little later. they're a funny bunch of kids.

friday night was so fun! me, kelly, nora, jacki, amanda, kendal, and holly went to the inferno! i would definitaly go again! im glad we all got to hang out again...its been awhile.

i met this kid...his name is robbie. i started dancing with him and realized he is really hot! lol. we talked a little on friday and then we hung out on saturday.he came over with my cousin cuz they're friends and we went out to eat at mcdonalds and then he had to take my cousin home but he asked me to hang out again that night. so me kelly and ashlee hung out with him and his two friends. it was a good time. :)

well thats it...i wrote this whole this out and then it disappeared. :( but whateve.

im so happy right now :)

♥ comment ♥

:)

2005-03-04T17:18:25Z

Todays my 17th birthday! yay!

i just got back from lunch with some of my favorite people:)

thanks guys :)

tomorrow night shall be an experience haha. im excited lol. i love my best friends!

thanks for everything guys!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY AMBER!

2005-02-24T23:37:17Z

I just wanted to say HAPPY BIRTHDAY to my good friend AMBER HEWITT! i hope you have a great day!

i haven't updated in awhile but thats cuz i can't...haha its a joke...my lifes a joke but whateve

my four day break was nice...i have fun with a select few people :) can't wait for this weekend. :) i think i might be hanging out with jake tomorrow...i hope :)

WHAT WOULD YOU DO IF:
» I committed suicide:
» I said I liked you:
» I kissed you:
» I lived next door to you:
» I started smoking:
» I stole something:
» I was hospitalized:
» I ran away from home:
» I got into a fight and you weren't there:

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT MY:

» Personality:
» Eyes:
» Face:
» Hair:
» Clothes:
» Mannerisms:

[1] Who are you?
[2] Are we friends?
[3] When and how did we meet?
[4] How have I affected you?
[5] What do you think of me?
[6] What's the fondest memory you have of me?
[7] How long do you think we will be friends or enemies?
[8] Do you love me?
[9] Have I ever hurt you?
[10] Would you hug me?
[11] Would you kiss me?
[12] Would you fuck me?
[13] Are we close?
[14] Emotionally, what stands out?
[15] Do you wish I was cooler?
[16] On a scale of 1-10, how attractive am I?
[17] Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
[18] Am I loveable?
[19] How long have you known me?
[20] Describe me in one word.
[21] What was your first impression?
[22] Do you still think that way about me now?
[23] What do you think my weakness is?
[24] Do you think I'll get married?
[25] What about me makes you happy?
[26] What about me makes you sad?
[27] What reminds you of me?
[28] What's something you would change about me?
[29] How well do you know me?
[30] Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
[31] Do you think I would kill someone?
[32] Are you going to put this on your journal and see what I say about you?

comment :)

:)

2005-02-15T02:19:35Z

well im grounded off the computer for various reasons. but then again when am i not in trouble.

i've come to the conclusion that my mom takes the time to look for reasons to bitch at me. i figured out she searches through my god damn bedroom when im not home to find shit to get me in trouble. i can't take her much longer. she comes to my school to sub and looks up unexcused absences from not only this semester but last semester and bitches at me for that. then shes goes to mr. k and tells him not to school business me any more and when i got home after all the bitching she goes im e-mailing all your teachers and telling them not to let you or your sister out of your classes ever. and i was ok psycho freak. shes seriously sooo weird!

enough of that...

this past weekend was soo fun! i love all the pom girls soo much! at the hotel we had our own coming home actually it was pomming home. hehe. it was fun. and there were boys on our floor haha. but they were very cute lol. we ended up achieving our goal and placing in the top 5...5th place! good job girls! i can't wait for next season!

happy valentines day to everyone! i didn't have a valentine though :( i went to the hockey game today and we won by a lot! jessica picked me and kelly up after she got kati. it was fun.

this four day week is need along with next weeks. i just want it to be spring break! i hope i can actually go out and have fun this weekend and not be sheltered by my mom. gayyyyy. whateve

my birthday is in 16 days! and im going to florida in like 32 days! yes!

i have a crush on a really cute boy :)

thats all....

comment bitches :)

much2cute069 @ 2005-02-06T14:32:00

2005-02-06T19:50:20Z

I'd have to say this was a pretty good weekend! went to regionals yesterday at churchill and we qualified into class A! good job girls! states is in exactly one week from today...yikes! im excited/nervous...

i'm excited for this week too! coming home week! i have to get an ugly shirt...but i dont know if i wanna waste my money on an ugly shirt. i'm pumped for snow gear day! yes!

i think on friday after the pep-assembly my mom is checking me out and me jacki nora and kelly are going out to eat! it was fun last time. :) i love my best friends!

valentines day is approaching quickly...no valentine of course...but i now have a new crush :) i dont know about this :)

i stole this thing from gina :) hehe thanks :) i think its soo cute though

I want this boy.

A nice boy, a bad boy.

A boy who when we have nothing better to do, we can just sit and talk while he plays with my hair and I rest on his lap.

He tells me we're gonna last forever & promises the world to me.

He'll give me his favorite sweatshirt.

He'll call me at 3am just to ask what I'm doing. He'll tell me he couldn't fall asleep because he was thinking about me and needed to hear my voice.

He'll find a way to tell me every morning "Have a great day baby I love you!"

He'll push me on the swings and then stop, & hold my waist while he whispers sweet sayings in my ear.

He's never embarrassed to tell me he loves me in front of his friends.

When I cry, he'll tell me I'm just too beautiful and kiss away all the tears. He knows just the right things to say to me,

& all of his friends will know we're in love because he can never stop talking about me.

He'll stay up with me all night when I'm not feeling well, and when I get sick, he holds my hair back and comforts me.

He'll love every little thing about me and tell me I'm so perfect.

We'll get in fights but laugh about them in the end. We won't get mad when making fun of each other because we laugh it off.

Even if we're a billion years old, butterflies will still go crazy in my tummy when he kisses me. He'll tell me that he couldn't live without me.

He'll surprise me with some junk food and a teddy, maybe some flowers when I've had the worst day.

He thinks I'm beautiful no matter what I dress in. Even when it's so ugly it could make your eyes water at the site of it.

When we go for ice cream, he'll put some on my nose... He'll kiss it off. Then I put it all over his face & giggle while I help him wipe it off with a napkin. And we'll just never stop laughing.

He'll never be scared to cry in front of me - and holds me when I cry.

He'll introduce me to his friends as the most perfect girl he's ever come across. "there's noone like her" He'll say, while he holds me close to his side.

He'll walk his cute butt into a "build-a-bear" store and make me a teddy, with all the pride in the world & when you get to give the bear a heart, he chooses all of them, even if it's extra money. Just because he couldn't decided, he feels everything for me.

We would have contest of how loud we could burp & how far we can spit

He'll take walks with me in the snow, and we'll stop to make snow angles, then he'll throw snow at me and tackle me and tell me "You're prettier then any angle I've ever seen." While he's sitting on top of me with a big grin.

We'll lay there next to each other and catch the snowflakes on our tongues. He doesn't even like snow, but I love it.

We'll take cute pictures in photo booths & he'll keep them in his wallet.

He'll let me go places with his mom. We would play tag in the middle of the food store and not care who's watching.

We'll dance in the rain and he'll stop and just watch me with a smile on his face while I make a fool out of myself. Then he'll take my hand and kiss me. We're soaked. He'll give me a change of clothes to wear and we'll make hot chocolate and sit cuddled on the couch watching Disney movies while our clothes dried.

& every time he speaks, I fall in love all over again.

I want him to argue over stupid things with me and then go totally soft when I got sad and apologized.

We'll lay under the stars together & he'll try to match them with all the reasons he loves me, "I think I'm going to run out of stars." He'll whisper and kiss my forehead.

We'll run around the house playing with squirt guns and when mom yells, he'll take the blame and clean everything up.

When we kiss he'll press his hips into mine.

I'll be everything to him. He'll be everything and more to me.

He'll take me by the hand, look in my eyes and tell me he loves me. Just for the sake of saying it.

He'll be there no matter what, & won't ever let me fall apart.

It will be perfect. Just what my dreams are made of.

...thats all...i just thought that was so cute...so i put it in here. im gonna go shopping now. and then to jackies tonight.

comment if you want :)

im sick :(

2005-01-29T03:15:17Z

it's been kind of long since the last update...oh well i get kind of sick of updating all the time...no one really reads it anyway.

today after school i was supposed to go tanning with jes but we couldn't find each other so i walked home with alicia :) she seriously makes me laugh so much! and then liz picked me up and we went tanning. but my package is up today...i might be sneaky though haha.

anyway...i like most of my new classes...some of them are just way to dead though. and i miss kendell soo much! we need to hang out very soon! i got soo bored in math today i started counting down the days till my birthday and spring break and our competitions lol.

speaking of competitions regionals is a week from tomorrow. yikes! and starts is two weeks from sunday. im getting nervous but very excited!

this week i've felt like shit! i have really bad allergies or i have a cold. i hate getting sick! ahh

tomorrow we have practice at 6:30 till 9:30 then im going to get my hair cut! finally! its been awhile!

people have been bothering me a lot lately. well not a lot of people just a person in general. and i really can't take any more of your crap...it's just flat out annoying! you need to cool down and take a look around. honestly get a clue. i dont want to hear it any more! get over yourself!

i just wanna say that i love jessica kubin! you helped me soo much with pom and everything! i love you oh soo much :) and i dont know what i would do without you! thanks sooo much for everything. and if you ever need to chat you can always call me! love you twin!

i also love my good friend ashlee mucha! i have soo much fun with you and im so glad we've become so much closer this year! i hope everything clears up for you! i love you best friend :)

i think thats all for now....you really are too cute :)

comment if you want :)

I want you and your beautiful soul

2005-01-22T21:57:38Z

I stole this from Holly :)

theres a lot of snow outside and i dont know if i like it...

me and liz are gonna have fun tonight :)

[+] Do You...[+]
[x] feel loved : sometimes...
[x] feel lonely : kinda
[x] feel happy : most of the time
[x] have your own room : umm not really i have to share with my sister :/
[x] listen to rap : haha yea sometimes when i feel ghetto
[x] listen to rock : uh huh
[x] listen to soul : I don’t think so lol
[x] listen to techno : i hate techno
[x] listen to reggae : not at all
[x] paint your toenails : yes when i have nothing better to do
[x] have more than 1 best friend : yep...Nora, Jacki, Liz and Stephen
[x] get good grades : um kinda...
[x] play an instrument : haha in 7th grade
[x] have slippers : yes my favorite pink ones
[x] wear boxers : no
[x] wear black eyeliner : sometimes...only on the bottom though :/
[x] like the color Pink : love it!
[x] like the color White : yes I do
[x] like to read : not really but i do
[x] like to write : ya if im in the mood...and only if its required lol
[x] have long hair : its getting there kinda
[x] have short hair : nope!
[x] have a cell phone : yes
[x] have a laptop : no but i would like one :)
[x] have a pager : haha nooo

[+] Ever Been Called... [+]
[x] Dumb?: uh huh
[x] Retarted?: haha yea
[x] Ugly?: yup
[x] Fat?: only by kelly and my mom
[x] Anorexic?: yup
[x] A waste of space?: i dont think so lol
[x] Useless?: once in awhile
[x] Smelly?: yea after practice lol
[x] A Slut?: hah yea :/
[x] Beautiful?: uh huh
[x] Smart?: haha no cuz im not
[x] Quiet?: um yea...i used to get a lot more though
[x] Boring?: when thers nothing to do
[x] Rebel?: hah yup
[x] Conceited?: yes I have

Who was the last person you...
[x] Talked to : Liz
[x] Yelled at : umm Kelly?
[x] Hugged : Stephen
[x] Went out to eat with : Nora, Jacki, Liz, Kelly and Leah
[x] Talked to on the phone: Liz
[x] Recieved an IM from : Dan
[x] Got flowers from : no one..i have never gotten any flowers excpet for at my dance recital lol
[x] Danced with : umm i dunno...maybe alicia at the game last night lol?
[x] Fought with : my mom
[x] Worried about : Dennis when he almost got in a fight last night
[x] Cried over : umm??
[x] Thought about : Ashlee hah

In the last 24 hours, have you-

[x] Cried : nope
[x] Bought something : Senate fries
[x] Gotten sick : nope
[x] Sang : oh yes but I don’t sing good at all
[x] Eaten : of course
[x] Been kissed : no
[x] Felt stupid : oh yea that happens everyday lol
[x] Met someone new : yea this kid at the movies lol
[x] Moved on : no dont think so
[x] Had a serious talk : no
[x] Missed someone : oh yes
[x] Hugged someone : uh huh
[x] Fought with your parents: yep i fight with my mom allll the time

im soooo sore!

2005-01-21T20:11:16Z

last night i went out to apple bees with a few of my best friends! yumm...it was a fun time :) and there was a really cute host. hehe after apple bees jacki dropped me off at home and then i waited for someone to pick me up to go to the movies...we saw in good company. it was a cute movie with a bad ending. o well the seats were realllllly comfortable! ahh. and then ashlee stayed the night :)

i've been working on pom a lot! seeing as i needed to learn the whole routine...eek! i know almost the whole thing now though i just need to learn like two more eight counts after kickline and then ill be able to go in formations instead of behind everyone haha. what a faggg.

tonight we have a game...i dont know if im in it or not but i dont know what we're doing yet. so i guess i find out at 6:30 if im doing it or not.

tomorrow i am going to the hockey game with jes (twin) and andrea...i forget where it is but hope we dont get lost this time...hahaha

me and ashlee were gonna go up to U of M tomorrow but theres nothing really fun to do this weekend lol so we're going next weekend maybe ;)

well all for now...i think im gonna go back to sleep :)

i'm soo caught up

2005-01-16T04:28:37Z

so last week was one looonngg ass week! it went on forever and felt like it would never end! i always hate the week before finals though! whateve

friday i slept in...i didn't want to go at all but i had to turn in my french final....which i was up till the crack of dawn doing. i got my schedule friday...well of course i did..everyone did. haha. i dont have any classes with kendell :( and i dont like some of my teachers but i like the people in my classes so i guess it works out.

today i babysat all day. i was watching my moms friends kids. the little girl is soo funny! i babysat from like 9 to 5 and made pretty good money for just sitting there.

before i left this morning i got a call from kelly at practice asking if i wanted to be on pom again...of course i doo! so i guess im on. i was real excited! but kinda nervous! i have to learn that routine by monday! so guess what ill be doing allll day tomorrow. :)

uhh i guess thats it...i can't wait for summer. im getting tired of winter now. time to be warm again! or at least time for spring break!

</3...i give up!

i wanna remember that lovely feeling

2005-01-10T21:26:01Z

ahh well....i dont know where to start...

i just read an entry from kendell ann hight.... my lovely friend who dedicated it to me i guess. lol i dont know. she wrote a thing. and it made me realize what a great, wonderful, awesome...(whatever word you would like to use) friend she is. kendell i love you!! and i wanna hang out with you soon!

although it did make me think a little. i dont know what about. it just did. just random thoughts running through my head. i've been kind of down i guess you could call it i dont know...just last week my mom started bitching at me for every little thing i do wrong. and i started to dread coming home to her as pathetic at it may sound. i mean i love her in all but i hate the way she is. i hate how she points out everything thing thats not perfect. i hate that shes a teacher and is hardcore about school. ya i wanna get into a good college but my grades are fine and im doing good in class. so maybe i dont have a A+++ GPA but its really not fair that she expects that out of me. ahh i get soo aggrivated!

i was thinking about last night....whatever happened there i dont even know. it actually kind of confused me. or maybe its you thats confused?

me and brittney were talking in first hour. and i guess that made me think some more. i love you britt! :)

i see all these cute couples in school and then i hear about all my friends little relationships and i just wish i could have someone to at least like to at least be able to go to when im lonely. i know everyone wants a boyfriend or a girlfriend or a relationship but i dont know..i've never had a boyfriend. well i have but that was a 6th grade relationship and we all know how that goes. ha.

i guess it just all hit me last week...i miss pom...i want to be on pom again. dance just isn't the same without kelly. sounds weird but its not. and my old dance friends made new friends so i just stand there and feel dumb.

i love my friends! and i wish it was like old times when at pom we would have good little chats. but now i feel like i never see any of you really. i see you sometimes on the weekends and stuff but we dont really seem like it was before.

i guess i just need to get used to how life is now and move on. and i guess just get over all this. maybe im just thinking way too far down and past anything i'll ever have a chance at. i just hope someday...i can be with you and happy.

im gonna go eat my taco bell now. maybe go ponder some more. haha that will get me far. whateve

....i wanna take my road test soon. no offense kelly you're a good driver in all but i wanna be able to drive myself places hehe

hmm....what to do in a situation like this... : /

sorry that was a lot of ummm i dont know what to call it..complaining? just pathetic? call it what you want

comment if you'd like

much2cute069 @ 2005-01-02T17:36:00

2005-01-02T22:39:11Z

Happy 2005!

I really don't want to go back to school...but im excited to wear my new clothes hehe.

Oh mannn. New years eve is a night to remember! i had soo much fun. except i lost my purse :( which had all my christmas gift cards and money in. o well i hope it turns up sooner or later. Friday was the best night so far this break! well actually it was cuz break is over :(

Saturday i didn't really feel very well. but i went shopping anyway lol. i went with ashlee and kelly. it was fun i guess but i was so dizzy. after the mall nora came over and we were just sitting around for a while then we stopped by robs but didn't go in lol. So we drove to sams and then back to dennis's. A bunch of us just hung out there for a little bit. i was really tired though lol. When i got home kelly and liz were watching spider man 2 i love that movie! and liz stayed the night.

Today i went tanning with twin :) and we went and got gas and took pictures lol. i looove you! and i miss you soo much! i finally finished my freaking 12 page project today! haha nothing but waiting till the last day!

I also ran and worked out a little over break. oh my i am soo out of shape! i need to do that more often! lol.i was soo sore for the next week!

well i think thats it. back to school tomorrow : / urg! i dont want to go! whateve!

<3.... :)

Merry Christmas!

2004-12-27T05:22:19Z

Wow it's been quite a while since i've updated...well not really lol

junior girls night was a lot of fun! i love apple bees and i love all those girls. i got a nice little gift from shannon :) it was cute and i hope kendal liked what i got her lol. after me nora amanda kelly and liz went bowling and met some people up there. that was fun i guess lol. then nora amanda and i went to 711 and got free donuts haha :)

i also got a call from krissy who i haven't heard from in forever! she was having a girls night at her house! o man i haven't seen or talked to some of those girls since...i dont even know when. courtney, krissy, alyssa, jess, jacki, nora and holly! we ate pizza and watched napolean dynamite. it was the first time i had seen it. o my goshhh it was soo fricken funny. i love that movie. i had fun though and im glad i got to see all you girls :)

um i guess the next big thing was christmas...i stayed the night at my dads christmas eve with my brother and sister. we watched elf...another funny movie. my dad woke me and kelly up at 8. o man i could've slept till noon. we opened presents. i got a lot of good stuff but i dont really feel like saying everything i got. then me kelly and kyle went back to my moms house to open presents here . i got more good stuff. i got almost everything i wanted...except a car lol. just kidding. but i did want a car lol. then i got ready and went to my aunts on the Killebrew side and visited and exchanged for a few hours then we had to head back home for the sexton side of the family. eventful day....and it wore me out lol. but i got lots of good gifts and a very good christmas!

after the get together i went home with my cousins and we went and saw darkness...it was creepy. i sqeezed my cousins arm the whole time and after her arm was all red....it was funny. then we went back to their house and chatted for awhile...i love talking with them. this morning we got up and went shopping. i got a new belt but thats about it. i wanna go shopping at 12 oaks...anyone up for it lol.

when we got home i went and visited the little boy i babysit...jack. hes so freaking adorable. i love him! then me and kelly and my dad went out to brighton to visit our friends who i also haven't seen in a long time. then me and kelly picked up steve and mike and drove around lol...fun time. especially when steve came over ;) lol.

um thats it. lol. im done. comment if you please.

i'll be waiting :(

yahooooo

2004-12-23T16:56:37Z

it snowed...a lot!!

im gonna go sledding

cuz i love snow!

Santa is comming tomorrow night!

im excited!

i don't really feel ike doing a full update right now

so i wont :)

much2cute069 @ 2004-12-13T16:40:00

2004-12-13T21:42:53Z

CURRENT
Current mood :: content
Current music :: christmas music on 100.3
Current taste :: wheat thins
Current clothes :: abercrombie shirt with noras white belt american eagle jeans gap socks and a pink necklace
Current annoyance :: i think my shoulder is popped out of place
Current smell :: amber romance
Current thing I ought to be doing ::studying
Current desktop picture:a pink star
Current favorite band :: dunno
Current book :: lovely bones
Current cd in stereo :: mariah carey christmas
Current crush :: no one really
Current favorite celeb : dunno
Current hate :: hmmmm
Do I Have a dream that keeps coming back? :: uhh no
Read the newspaper? ::only for current events every other tuesday
Have any gay or lesbian friends? : not that i know of
Consider yourself tolerant of others? ::yea sometimes im impatient though
Consider love a mistake? :: no but i've never been in love
Like the taste of alcohol? ::yes...
Have a favorite candy? :: sour patch kids
Believe in magic? uh only if the magician is good
Have any pets? :: yea tigger :)
Go to or plan to go to college? :: yea
Have any piercings? :: yea two in each ear
Hate yourself :: sometimes
Have an obsession? :: ummmm i don't think so
Have a secret crush?:: uhh no
Do they know yet? :: no
Care about looks? ::yea sometimes

LOVE LIFE
Ever been in love? :: no
Do you believe in love at first sight? :: no
Do you believe in "the one?" :: um maybe

JUICY STUFF
Have you ever played a game that required removal of clothing? :: hehe ya
Have you ever been intoxicated? :: yea
Height :: 5'4

LAST THING YOU
Bought :: my secret santas present :)
Ate :: wheat thins
Drank :: tang
Read :: my chemisty study guide
Watched on tv :: a really sad christmas movie i don't know the name

EITHER/ OR
cats or dogs :: dogs
single or taken :: single guys....
pen or pencil :: pen
gloves or mittens :: glittens
food or candy :: Food
cassette or cd :: cd
coke or pepsi :: coke
this or that :: whats the difference

WHO DO YOU WANT TO
kill :: hmmm some girl
like :: a cute guy
be like :: dunno
avoid :: mr. schekell

LAST PERSON YOU
talked to :: alex
hugged ::angelo
instant messaged :: ashlee

WHERE DO YOU
eat :: apple bees is my favorite
cry :: my room?
wish you were :: some where really warm

HAVE YOU EVER
Dated one of your best friends? :: no
Loved somebody so much it makes you cry? :: haha no
Drank alcohol? :: uh huh
Done drugs? :: no
Broken the law? :: yea
Run away from home? :: maybe when i was little lol
Broken a bone? :: yea my wrist
Played Truth Or Dare? :: yea
Kissed someone you didn't know? :: yea
Been in a fight? :: does kelly count?
Come close to dying? :: dont think so

WHAT IS
The most embarrassing CD in your collection? :: hanson
Your favorite thing for breakfast? :: donuts
Your favorite restaurant? :: apple bees
What's on your bedside table? :: i dont have a table....kellys bed is next to mine
What do you eat when you raid the fridge late at night? ::whatever's in there
What is your secret guaranteed weeping movie? :: a walk to remember
What is your biggest fear? :: losing a family member
What feature are you most insecure about? :: my looks?
Do you ever have to beg? :: ...my parents for money
Crushes? :: no!!
Do you know anyone famous? :: no
Describe your bed :: small and purple
Do you know how to play poker? :: no :)
What do you carry with you at all times? :: purse well not always...my phone
How do you drive? :: good!
What do you miss most about being little? :: not having to care about anything
Are you happy with your given name? :: no i hate it soo much!!
How much money would it take to get you to absolutely give up the Internet for one year?:: haha a lot
What color is your bedroom? ::light purple and light green i hope i get to redo it soon though
Do you like yourself and believe in yourself? :: umm sometimes
Do you think you're cute? :: not really... : /
Do poor, homeless, or starving people sometimes annoy you? :: no i feel bad for them
Do you consider yourself to be a nice person? :: most of the time
Do you spend more time with your girlfriend, boyfriend, or your friends? ::with my friends...
Have you ever been caught "doing something"?::what kind of question is that?? maybe...
Shy to make the first move?:: depends on who it is

hmm that was a weird thing...i just found it in some random persons journal.

i had a good weekend. friday i went to the bball game and then to dans. we left dans cuz i don't even know why and went to daves. no offence but that was boring all we did was sit there lol.

saturday i babysat till 5:30 then came home and got ready for the dance. nora came and picked me up and i went to get ready at her house and liz and dennis joined us lol. we all went to the snowball...pretty fun i guess...it started to get boring though. although it was better than homecoming...im glad you came :) after the dance liz and i went to erics and watched tv till 11:30 then she dropped me off at home.

sunday i went shopping with my dad. i got a few more gifts from him and i also got some of my christmas shopping done. i have a few more to buy though. i got my secret santas gift for junior girls. i hope you'll like it :) im excited for that too.

i can't wait for break...nicole and jes we need to go out to eat sometime soon :) and kendell we're are hanging out for sure over break! love you girls :)

Kelly and i have planned out for break that after christmas we are getting our nails done, going tanning (im sooo white), i wanna get my hair highlighted and we are going shopping! i can't wait!

hmm thats it i think. i just want to say i love amber hewitt!! :) thanks for the new lay out! i love 2nd hour just cuz you're in it! hehe

<3 12 days till christmas!

im in need of money!

2004-12-06T21:51:59Z

I've been thinking a lot lately. just about everything really. i really should be getting excited for christmas but for some reason im not....and i can't really explain why because there is no explanation.

im starting dance tomorrow. that cool i guess. as well as going to the first basketball game with mike and maybe james i think. im excited to see the pommy girls perform. ill sit there and wish i was part of the team still. what can you do. good luck girls.

i don't really know if i want the telemarketing job anymore. the boss seems way to unorganized and i won't ever have a ride. i have to work thursday and friday this week. everyone else is working wednesday and my mom works all day thursday so i won't have a ride on the first day. kinda pathetic i know. im might go apply at dollys pizza with amber.

i've been thinking a lot lately about my dad too. i feel bad for him. he's so lonely. it makes me want to cry when i think about it. i feel so guilty that i never go over there any more but he always has to work saturday mornings and i have to babysit almost every saturday night. so we only really see each other on sundays. i wish he would move closer. i would honestly move in with him. i get along with him soo much better than i do with my mom. i love my dad soo much and i get worried about him cuz hes always getting sick and has no one living with him to take care of him. i guess i can only hope that some day i can live with him. speaking of my mom i think she tries to make my life miserable. I can't hang out sundays i guess now. thats cool. i can't really hang out on school days because i don't even know why. she said i didn't quit pom to hang out with friends.and i can't talk on the computer unless i read a fricken book because i need to read. shes sooo weird i can't take it sometimes. she said i need to do something and i was like well i do i hang out with my friends after i finish my homework and shes like thats not good enough. k mom sorry im not kyle who gets a freaking 4.3 gpa. geeezzzzee she makes me soo mad! i can never do anything right!

i think since i've grown up with someone by my side my whole life im not used to anything different. i don't like going places by myself. if you ever see me in the halls in school im most likely with kelly because even though we don't like to admit it we are always together. i know im mean to kelly and we fight a lot but i really dont mean a lot of the things i say. people talk about their friends behind their backs or whatever and mean it but when i talk about kelly i don't mean it. i tell her everything and i can actually trust her when i say don't tell anyone. i know that she'll be there my entire life and others won't. we've been there for each other for 16 years now and i wouldn't change it for the world. i appreciate everything she does for me even though i don't show it but i just want to thank you for putting up with my crap. : /

to some this whole entry up... im sorry for the way i am.

maybe some day ill be the person i was in middle school or freshman year. maybe some day ill be shy again and be not so carefree. i don't mean this sarcastically and i don't mean to come off as i bitch. i honestly mean this. im sorry for all this shit i've caused you and im sure any others. i don't really know. i'll try to be a better friend and keep my thoughts to myself. i'll try to stop being so carefree and annoying. i just want our friendship back.

i feel another rough week a brewing. i hope it gets better.

9 days till break and 19 till christmas morning! :)

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